Some thoughts.....


Been in a very reflective mood latly....doing some writing, some soul searching, and trying to figure out what I want, and who I am. In this pondering, there are a few quotes that i've come up with that i'd like to share....maybe some of you can relate:

I am afraid

I am scared

That my moments of weakness

Will result

In a future of failure.



The cruelest thing about the past

Is that it never changes,

And it's your fault.



I wish I was able to turn my enemies

Into my friends.



The greatest ability we have

As people

Is the ability to evolve.



Isn't it funny how the path to self-discovery often leads us in circles?





Ok philosophy aside, my life has been somewhat hectic as of late. I've been having to work alot more, and have overall just felt really tired. On top of that, i'm kinda stuck in a situation in a situation I never thought i'd be in. I described it to my mother as a fued between my head and my heart. I'll leave it at that until I figure it out. If you just HAVE to know, feel free to ask though. The more input I get from others the better. Hm..what else...oh yea. I got that tatoo, theres a pic of it in my picture section, so check it out and let me know what you think.

Welp,that's all for now. Thank you for curing your bordom with my blog. Much love.

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Whattup everyone, well as usual I like to think and share with you my thoughts, so here I go again with my hypothesis.

I've found myself thinking alot on the subject of fear again, and it's control over people who allow it to rule their lives. Prejudice, ignorance, vanity, and all other fallacies of the human condition I believe have their root in fear. I was thinking about this today because a friend of mine came over and we read each other's cards and in both of our readings, fear was a large part of the problem in both of our lives. For my friend, it was the fear to completely commit and expose oneself to another. Of course this is a well founded fear...Who isn't afraid to completely commit? But at the same time it's a necessary evil in that only through complete exposure can complete comfort be achieved. In other words, if you show no one your heart, no one will ever see it. In my case, it was the fear of loss. Which makes sense, because those of you who know me very well know that loss is something i've dealt with for a long time in my life. It's because of this that I tend to be overbearing and or short with people (anyone notice i'm a bit of a smartass?). I relate it to the psalm, "One can hold more sand in their cupped loose palm than they can holding it tightly and letting the sand slip through their fingers." This is a characteristic of myself I'm quite aware of and have been working on for a time now.

So now to the point on my blog. At any point in our lives, there is a fear or barrier that is keeping us from being happy. Once one barrier is broken, one is sure to come along our paths again. Our truest lives are found when we continue to climb and break through these fears we come in contact with. Life is growth, and growth is blossoming. We all eventually parish, but why go out as a dull undeveloped flower? Shakespeare said that all the world's a stage, and everyone merely playing a role. If that is true, than be a dynamic character. Be someone YOU would want to read about, and make your own happy ending. You're the author.....isn't that grand?

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Whattup? It's your boy Adam again. As usual, anytime I get a inspirational thought or something I find, intriguing, I share it with you, my friends. Today I was thinking about Love. What is it exactly? Why do we need/want it? How is it expressed? I came across these thoughts because i've been talking to someone i've met recently and I wanted to make sure my intentions were pure. Here's what I came up with.

Love is not what is commonly thought of as portrayed in sitcoms, movies, etc. There is no such thing as love at first sight. No one person can "complete you". We all have flaws, but you cannot expect someone to fix them for you, that's something you have to do for yourself. Love does however cause growth. Love will show you your flaws and help you improve upon them. This is expressed in "unconditional love". It is a rare find so meet someone who will take the time and have the patience to see through the times when your insecurities shine through and blind your relationship, whether it be platonic or romantic. So my question to you reader, is "do the people you surround yourself really love you? do they have YOUR best interests ar heart? is your relationship mutually beneficial?" Answering these questions may give you some heavily enlightening insight to where you are in your life and in your relationships.

Also, one must love themselves before there is any potential for them to love another. This may be common knowledge, but who really is using this information? Knowledge is powerless when dormant in the mind. For anyone who is struggling with self-identitiy, or any sort of insecurity the are having with themselves, I would recommend the book "Why Am I Afraid To Tell You Who I Am?" by John Powell. This book is very helpful and eye opening. The basic premise of the book is summed up by one statement "I can only know as much of myself as I have the courage to share with you." So, the more you open up yourself to other people openly and honestly, the more you will actually learn about yourself.

Well that's all I got for today....Love you all.

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These past few weeks, i've been payin particular attention to people, how they act, why they act as they do etc. And right about this time, I began to study conformity/rebellion, and Revolution in school. Call it what you a will, a sign, an angel whispering in my ear, whatever but it's had someone of a profound effect on my thinking as of late.

I'll begin by saying that there are two types of relationships. Those where you are viewed as an equal, and those where you aren't. The relationship where equality is evident is what we all strive for in our dealings with other people. We are recognized as a person, and feel as though our intellect or value isn't diminished. The other, is very dehumamizing. We are talked down to, treated as though we are an animal, or are simply used for the conveniece of the other person.

Which brings us to conformity and rebellion. In a sense, EVERYONE conforms, and rebels. What i'm speaking of is the form of rebellion that brings about change. This is a result of one's self esteem and how much one value's themselves. If the person values themselves enough to rebel against inhumane treatment, this is a positive form of rebellion. It causes positive change, and boosts the person's already strong self-esteem. Those who do not value themselves will subject themselves to the continuous mistreatment of their opressor.

So who exactly ARE these rebels? Well if we search through history, we can find many. John Locke, for example. He pioneered the idea of limited government, natural rights, and government at the consent of the governed. Locke basically wrote the Declaration of Independence for us. Then you also have the French revolutionaries who protested their 3 Estate stystem and eventually wrote a Constitution for Franch, ensuring fair treatment for all French citizens. This is only one a few examples of people who have gone against what was commonly held as truth or tradition and forged a new better path for themselves and those around them.

But where is that now? Turn on Jerry Springer, and you can see all kinds of people who are completely driven by their insecurities, fears, lusts, etc. who have no idea how to improve themselves. (Not all low-income people have these problems, turn on Dr. Phil and you can see just as many rich fols with problems too. They just dont fight one another.) Where is the modern day John Locke? or Rosa Parks? We live in a world completely segregated by either our skin color, faith, political affiliation, etc. It seems as though people are only excited when they are fighting one another bringing each other down?

Why not rebel? Why do we not use our common sense and realize this is wrong? The Enlightenment was the greatest movement for the human mind. It was the awakening of the human intellect, and since it's been in a steady declined. I fear it will soon go out. The only thing that will keep it alive, is if we use our minds and rebel against the chains that attempt to bind us all. Whether it be our own insecurities, another person, a group of people. We were all born free, and deserve to keep this right. Let us all stand up with one unified voice and say no more. Divided we shall surely fall.

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